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Whitney Hello there! My name is Whitney and this is my little corner of the WWW. I'm 27 years old and currently trying to navigate life in the "big" city. I make it through with the help of my boyfriend Seto, best friend Kyle and an array of whacky friends. By day I'm a retail slave and aspiring front-end programmer and by night you can find me masquerading as a slighly-rabid fangirl. I love all things Doctor Who and am a recovering World of Warcraft addict. Life can get pretty crazy at times, but I wouldn't have it any other way.

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One Year – Thank You and a Promise

Today is my one-year anniversary with Seto. We got to sleep in, spend the day together and he took me out to Olive Garden for dinner. As my gift to him, I even went all-out geeky girl and created a special modded version of our Blade Symphony map just for him.

Happy Anniversary Blade Symphony Map

But this post isn’t for me to sit here and rave about how supposedly perfect our relationship is and has been over the past twelve months. It’s not for me to pretend like it’s all been a cakewalk and nothing at all has gone wrong. I certainly could do that…but it would be going against my efforts to start being more honest with myself. No, this isn’t a way for me to try and convince everyone that I’m in the best relationship ever. It’s a way for me to say “Thank You” to someone because I’m not sure I’ll ever be able to convey the depth of my gratitude face-to-face.

Seto,
Since Day 1 you’ve always been there for me. Despite the fact that I was honest with you about my past going into our relationship, I still don’t think you realized to what exactly you were getting yourself into. To simply put it: the crazy runs deep. I have a lot of issues, some as a direct result of my past and some that were always there and just made worse by my experiences. These issues affect nearly every aspect of my life from how I see things, to how I get along with people, to how I can or cannot put my trust in someone.

Because of this—and I’m sure it’s something you’ve noticed—I tend to always be on my guard. It’s not because I’m waiting for you to do the same things people in my past have done, it’s because I’m waiting for me to be the one who screws it all up. If I’m 100% honest with myself, it’s something that I’ve been waiting for all year long. Because to me that’s what I do: I screw things up.

And I have… I know I’ve upset you. I know I’ve disappointed you. And I couldn’t blame you for a second if you’ve thought at times that this isn’t what you signed up for…because it’s not. Nobody should have to sign up to take care of the basket case girl who can’t get her act together.

Just like everyone else in my past, you’ve continually pushed me forward and urged me to work on these issues. Just like they all could, you can see how miserable I end up making myself and how it branches out from me to those around me. But that’s where the similarities end.

For the first time ever, I’ve met someone who gets that this isn’t an overnight process. I’ve met someone who didn’t walk away when the issues didn’t flip off like a light switch. I met someone willing to go out of his way and do things I know he didn’t want to do in order to try and make things easier on me. I met someone who didn’t try and use my issues as a weapon against me. Someone who was willing to sit and let me at least try to explain why I was feeling and acting the way I was instead of just yelling at me because I was behaving irrationally. I’ve met someone who has truly shown me that I can and that I really, truly do want to be better; not just for them, but for me as well.

You’ve been so patient with me, so understanding. When it feels like the world is falling down, you’re the one who is there to show me that it’s not…that I’m just letting myself get the better of me. I can, and will be a better me because you lend me your strength when I have none. Yet I feel like I don’t necessarily deserve it. In my mind, it’s almost as if I’m being rewarded for doing things wrong. I screw shit up and in return get this amazing boy who is willing to do whatever it takes to make me smile again.

But each and every road bump makes me that much more determined.
I will prove to you, to the world, and most importantly to myself that your faith in me is not misplaced.
That is my promise to you.

I am a better person now than I was a year ago because I met you. And despite what may happen in the future I will be a better person a year from now than I am today, just for having you in my life. You mean the world to me and I will never be able to thank you enough for everything that you’ve done and continue to do in order to help me become the person we both know I can be.

I love you Seto, with all my heart,
Whitney

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I feel like it has been a really long time since I’ve posted anything…probably because it has been. Hell, I can’t even take credit for my last post since it was written mid-October and scheduled to go public on November 1st.

BUT ANYWAYS.

Challenge Updates

The DietBet is officially over! I didn’t quite make it to my personal goal of 10lbs lost, but I did manage to lose 9.6 which was enough to make me an official winner in the bet. Don’t know how much money I’ve won and I’m sure it wont be too much, but I’m just happy I actually completed it! Kudos to Kyle, Rochelle and Dessa who also all completed and won the bet as well!

DietBet Winner Email

As for my Clothes Cleanout challenge… I really need to get on that. I haven’t managed to get anything done yet since I’ve been so busy this past month. However I have a lot of time off in the next few weeks, so I imagine that I’ll be spending that time getting everything finished off.

Life

Not too much has been happening in my life. Mostly just eat, sleep, work, repeat.

Last week, however, my mother and Aunt Karen came to visit for a few days. Mostly they just wanted to go shopping, but I got to take them to a couple cool places.

Sunday night we just hit up Eat n’ Park because they were tired from driving and I was tired from working all day. Then they got me to put in a movie for them and promptly fell asleep within 5 minutes of it starting.

Monday after a hilarious incident with Starbucks coffee1 we went to Giant Eagle and Whole Foods first thing in the morning so that my mom could buy gift cards for Christmas (since buying them at Giant Eagle got me fuelperks!) and then made a quick stop-off at Starbucks because Aunt Karen seems a bit fascinated with it. I haven’t been there in a while and the last several times I’ve gone I’ve just ended up getting Passion Tea… However now I’ve falling in love once again with the Chai Tea Latte. Soooo good! Especially now that every day is cold as hell.

After Starbucks we headed to Ross for some more Christmas shopping. Ended up getting a bunch of awesome things for family, and found a rice cooker for me (which I won’t get until my birthday or Christmas but at least we found one!). My aunt also bought me a larger crockpot since I’m cooking more and have been having to use Kyle’s since mine is a single-person one. I got some Chai Tea at Teavana, we had lunch at Five Guys since mom and Karen had never had it, and then headed home to meet Seto. We ended up going to Jerome Bettis Grille 36 for dinner since that was an Aunt Karen special request. It was the first time I’ve been there and it was pretty good. Ended up topping off the night by watching Date Night with everybody before it was bedtime.

Tuesday I had to get up early to take Seto to work since he was going on a trip and didn’t want to just leave his car there. By the time I got back home, mom and Karen were ready to go. So we headed to Robinson for breakfast at IHOP2. Then it was a long day of shopping. We went to IKEA first and everyone got a few things. Ended up donating a couple stuffed animals through the Stuffed Toys Campaign that IKEA is currently running.

We went to SAMS club where my mom and aunt bought a crapload of food for Kyle and I and then it was off to Best Buy to see what we could find in terms of an Otterbox. I wanted to upgrade my phone, but I absolutely hate the new version of the Otterbox Defender for iPhone 5c/5s. I really wanted the 5c, but since there aren’t any good rugged cases out for it yet, I ended up deciding that the 5s was the way to go. So I ended up buying an Otterbox for the iPhone 5 which ends up covering the thumbprint scanner, but at least it doesn’t have a hole that lets dirt under the screen. After successfully obtaining it, it was off to the Verizon store to pick up the new phone. I ended up getting the silver one and I absolutely LOVE it.

We hit up Giant Eagle where my mom and aunt bought even more food for Kyle and I, and then I took them to Ichiban and unsuccessfully tried to convince my aunt to eat with chopsticks. So I got to be the only person at our table of 9 using them. Once we got home the three of us spent a few hours reorganizing the pantry which was basically a mess… Then we ended up watching about half of Memoirs of a Geisha before everyone was falling asleep.

Wednesday we got up super early to head to DeLucas for breakfast and then shopped around the Strip District before hitting up Starbucks one last time and then mom and Karen had to head for home. For the rest of the day Kyle and I didn’t even get off the couch. We watched like 4 movies and then fell asleep.

It was a pretty awesome few days.

Mom and Aunt Karen Ichiban New iPhone LOTS of Food Asian Grocery Store Haul DeLuca's Breakfast

Love

Things with Seto have been great. November 13th was the one year anniversary of the day that I met him, so I was super bummed that he was away on a work trip. But I still sent him a text to tell him I loved him and then got to see him on the 14th, so it was a little okay.

Our official anniversary is December 1st and I honestly can’t believe a whole year has gone by already. He is so amazing and I can’t even begin to explain how lucky I am to have found him. ^_^

Pain

And of course no entry of mine would be complete without some sort of accident happening…

Sunday afternoon at work my back started hurting. I thought nothing of it because it really wasn’t that bad. I guess I was wrong though, since come Monday morning I could barely even move around. Even breathing hurt. I finally caved in and texted Seto to ask if he’d take me to the doctor after he got off work.

We ended up having to go two different places before I could get seen. They did a chest x-ray just to make sure that it wasn’t like a collapsed lung or anything (the pain/difficulty when breathing worried her) and determined that it was probably just a very strained muscle. I got sent on my way with a prescription for Vicodin and orders to take it easy for a couple days.

Seto took me out to dinner and then to CVS to get the prescription filled. Then it was home where we watched some YouTube while I put ice on my back until it was time for bed.

Today it doesn’t feel much better, but the medication is helping me so that at least I’m not in pain 24/7 and I can actually sit up/move around without feeling like I’m dying.

  1. Mom and Karen thought they could use Kyle’s ground Starbucks coffee as instant coffee…it didn’t work so well
  2. Oh my God their Salted Caramel Hot Chocolate is AMAZEBALLZ!

Still Sick But At Least I Can Cook!

I was really hoping that feeling better last Monday night meant I was about to kick this cold…no such luck. I feel as bad now as I did a week ago; it just wont let up at all.

I have done absolutely nothing productive (aside from getting up a review) this week at all. The only thing I managed to even do at all was cook, and even then it was all crock-pot-don’t-have-to-do-much recipes. But I’m still pretty proud of myself, considering that 11 months ago if someone suggested that I cook something I pretty much laughed in my face.

My ex liked to consider himself a good cook, and any time the idea of me cooking came up he’d pretty much laugh at me (and to be honest I’d laugh along because I truly believed I couldn’t cook worth shit). I’d also tend to get criticized for the things I DID cook if he didn’t help me in some way. But with Seto its a completely different story. He actually asks me to cook for him and if I ask him what he wants he usually just says “anything you want to make is good.” It’s a ridiculous confidence boost for me.

And so I cook. And I want to start sharing that more on here (part of my quest to eventually become at least a 50% domestic goddess).

I don’t have a recipe for the pumpkin muffins, but they’re too simple to make: 1 pkg spice cake mix, 1 small can pumpkin, 1 egg. Combine and spoon into muffin tins. Bake according to cake directions for cupcakes/muffins.

Here’s to hoping I can share more yummy food/recipes in the future!

card-mycard

I’m not a credit card kind of person. I’ve seen too many people I know bury themselves under a mountain of debt by being irresponsible with their cards and I promised myself that I would never do that. In fact, it wasn’t until September of 2013 at the age of 26 that I applied for my very first credit card.

Up until now I’ve relied solely on my debit cards for making purchases because I’m very good at only buying things when I actually have the money to do so. However I do have an issue with using my debit card to purchase things online (especially from retailers I don’t 100% trust): it’s tied to my bank account. If someone got hold of the information they could wipe me out…… [Read More]


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